2019 – The year of Action

2019 has gotten off to a rocky start but I'm determined not to let all these difficulties and insecurities crush me. Last year I didn't make traditional new year's resolutions, instead I choose to focus on gratitude. To have it be a guiding theme for the year. Practicing gratitude is not easy, especially in this fast paced world we live in and for a overthinking individual like myself. It's something I'm going to have to keep working on because I honestly believe it's the key to having a more positive outlook on life. In 2019 my guiding theme is going to be ACTION! Not as in watch a new action movies every week but as in get shit done! I had a bit of an aha moment last fall when I realised that the self discipline I've been telling myself I need in order to start certain projects is not going to fall from the sky. I either have to start having self discipline or keep writing long list of things that never get done. So I looked into this mysterious thing called self discipline and it turns out it all comes down to habits and being consistent with those…

Continue Reading

Belle

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the culture I consume. I've been for example asking myself why I like watching costume and period dramas so much and the problematic aspect of watching them as a black woman. There's this interesting article by Monique Jones where she explains the many things she finds difficult watching what she calls problematic faves. I can really relate to her dilemma. Every time I'm watching shows like The Crown or Victoria, I start thinking about colonialism and all the horrible things that came with it. Do I stop watching them? No. Am I conflicted about it? Very much so. When I was growing up and watching these costume and period dramas I wasn't thinking so much about it. These rich white families from centuries ago felt so far removed from my own reality that I watched them with the same fascination as with sci-fi or fantasy movies. But over the years I've become more self conscious about it and started analysing them in a different way. Lately though I've become even more critical. There are plenty of these dramas being made every year and they often only feature white actors. The few roles there…

Continue Reading

Copycat, copyright and the coveting of ideas

Last fall I did a school project where our topic was positivity. It's a very big and philosophical subject for a conceptual design course but we tackled it the best we could in the limited amount of time we had. One subject that came up early in the process was motivational Pinterest quotes. It was fascinating to see how we all interpreted them differently and how some perceived them to be infuriating rather than inspiring. I've noticed that I now see positive quotes in a different light after that project. There's one quote (more of a creative tip really) that I came across on Pinterest a while ago that really made me think, "Do not covet your ideas". After a bit of googling I found out that it's from a book by Paul Arden.  It probably caught my eye because I was thinking about copyright a lot at the time and this quote was somehow contradicting my instinctual need to protect my work. The core of the chapter about coveting ideas goes something like this: The problem with hoarding is you end up living off your reserves. Eventually you’ll become stale. If you give away everything you have, you are…

Continue Reading

Big Magic

As someone who usually describes herself as a slow reader, I'm really glad I've picked up a reading habit again. I've decided to stop beating myself down for being the person who never knows who's written the latest it thriller and can only list Jane Austen, when asked about my favourite author (so far the only author that I've read more than one book). I've discovered that I like reading about people figuring stuff out with a lot of honesty and humour. I really loved Shonda Rhimes' book Year of Yes and I've just finished another great one, Big Magic - Creative living beyond fear by Elizabeth Gilbert. This book gave me a lot to think about and I think I need to buy it (I usually borrow my books from the city library) so I can go back to certain chapters when that crippling self doubt starts bubbling up. Writing book reports was never something I excelled at  but here are a few things that I thought were great about this book. Firstly I love the way it's written, it feels like you're talking to a really good friend and she's sharing stories and lessons learned over the years.…

Continue Reading

Lichen me like

In the past few years, my new year's resolution has simply been "get shit done!". I've said it to myself as a reminder to not wait around for things to happen but to actively go after and do the things I want whether life altering big or everyday small. One thing I need to get "done" more this year is get outdoors more often. In the past I would have said it's in my nature to be a homebody but now I wonder if it's more of a habit than a trait. Either way I need to be outdoors more because it's simply good for me. I always feel better after a long walk or a trip to park or forest. These pictures were taken last November when I accompanied a classmate on a lichen gathering trip in Nuuksio National Park. She was working on a really interesting textile project about plant based dyeing. The weather was horrible but it really didn't matter. It was calming to be outdoors and yet another reminder of marvellous mother nature and the endless magnificent things you can find in the forest, like a variety of lichen and other growing things.

Continue Reading

2018 – The year of Gratitude

I was at first thinking about doing a regular recap of the past year and maybe even mention my new year's resolutions but I felt I wanted to do things a bit different this time. I need to embrace more change in my life so why not start with my blog posts? Instead I want to say what I'll be focusing on in 2018, gratitude. I know it might sound a little bit cheesy but I've noticed how much my perspective on things changes when I remind myself of all the things I'm grateful for. Looking at things differently is key to changing one's mindset. 2017 was an exciting and scary year full of changes. I maybe didn't get to travel as much as I would have wanted and some periods of the year were very stressful but looking back I'm reminded how incredibly fortunate I am. Cultivating gratitude is not always easy. There are so many injustices in the world that just make me so angry! I easily get lost in bad thought cycles when I'm stressed and fall deep in the rabbit hole of self doubt. But I think it's exactly in those moments I need to remember…

Continue Reading

The wool conundrum

Veganism, now that's a word that can get some people really worked up. I wasn't really sure whether to post this or not but even sensitive matters need to be discussed. But let's not get too serious, this post is more about asking questions and finding options. I became a vegan earlier this year and so far I've approached the eating with a child like curiosity and relaxed experimentation. I do have those moments when I feel that there's nothing to eat but it's usually when I'm feeling really lazy and the grocery store has run out of that one frozen pizza I can eat. Let's just say I don't have the food prep routine down yet. The biggest challenge during my few months as a vegan has been the constant paranoia that I'm alienating my friends with this lifestyle choice. Then I remind myself that I was probably annoying as a meat eater too and hope that they will tell me if I'm becoming irritating. In defence of "annoying" vegans I'll say this, when you make a major life choice/lifestyle change you're often very excited about it and naturally want to share that with people. So what some might…

Continue Reading

It’s time for something new (and happy anniversary!)

I started writing this post wanting to share what's been going on lately but then an invoice from my web hosting company reminded me of something. I've been so busy lately that I almost forgot that my fourth blogging anniversary was coming up. When I started this website I was struggling to find work in design and started the blog as a way to creatively keep me occupied. I had this irrational fear that I would forget most of what I had learned in design school while doing those other jobs we all have to do in order to get by. It's been a few years now and even though I've at times felt like my life is uneventful, looking back to those first posts I can see how much I've changed as a person but also as a creator. During these few years I've changed jobs, traveled and moved a couple of times. I'm glad I've kept creating and posting, even when I was feeling very insecure about my skills. It's now again time for another chapter, challenge and adventure. I'm going back to school to get my masters and I've moved again and I now have not one…

Continue Reading

How does one join an art collective?

That's what I'd like to know! I was watching a mini series about the Bloomsbury Group (I blame it on that Grantchester binge watching session) and got thinking what it would be like to be in an art collective and if it's something that still exists in today's world. The group was not an art collective per se and I can imagine the multiple love triangles caused a lot of drama but there's something about artistic individuals creating together that intrigues me. I envision this lively but safe space where people inspire and challenge you. Where new ground is broken and minds enlightened. In the real world however, how does a rather paranoid introvert find/join/create an art collective? Scarlet by Stiina Saaristo, 2004. In my art collective fantasy, it would be the place where I would find my own painting style. Did I mention that I actually don't paint that much? Organs III by Renáta Jakowleff. I have always been fascinated by glass, so maybe in my fantasy art collective I would become a glass master! 'Cause here's the thing, every time I go to a museum, I always get really inspired and eager to create. I often find myself asking, why I'm not painting/sculpting/writing more. The most recent time I asked that…

Continue Reading

In a galaxy very very near

I have thing for fireworks. I love watching them and in the past few years I've been very keen on photographing them as well. This has not always been the case. There was a time when fireworks made me incredibly tense as the sound reminded me of bombs. It took a while but eventually I was able to go outside and enjoy the explosion of colours. As for photographing fireworks, it started with my previous camera that had a fireworks setting. I don't think I was using that setting properly but I loved the messy abstract images I got. Now that I've gotten better acquainted with my dslr I know I should use a tripod to get the proper shots. I however find that it is the random experimental images that speak to me. You know the ones, that look like someone put a laser in a blender or nebulas and galaxies far far away. I do plan to buy a tripod and then I'll try the more professional way of photographing fireworks. After I watched the fireworks marking the beginning of Finland's centenary anniversary and the euphoria of that experience had worn off, I started thinking how I'd just basically watched tens of thousands (maybe even hundreds…

Continue Reading

Bring it on 2017

I think we can call 2016 a difficult year for the human race! It's easy to get stuck on the horrible things that have happened (and are still happening) but it's in these difficult times that finding the good becomes even more important. The later half of 2016 was challenging on a personal level. I've was feeling very frustrated and struggled to find energy. Too often  last fall I found myself operating survival mode. The good news is that it's up to me to change things, I have to reprioritise and change the things that are dragging me down. So I'll start 2017 with reminding myself of the great things that happened this past year. During easter I went to London, Pre-Brexit London! Sometimes it's really fun to travel somewhere without any major plans. And having friends who can show you around and offer you a place to stay is priceless. The highlight of my year was definitely the trip to Tokyo. It was a life altering journey that was so much fun! I was so scared when I left, scared of flying such a long distance by myself, scared of getting lost in such a huge city and a whole list of other things. Guess what? Everything went…

Continue Reading

A very merry unbirthday to me

Oh may goodness, another year has passed! On one hand it feels like it wasn't that long ago I was freaking out about that first blog post, on the other hand it feels like years since my second anniversary post. I guess  it's been a  transformative year! Lately I've been thinking a lot about self expression and creativity. On my CV it says I'm fashion designer. As far as design disciplines go, fashion is my first love and what I studied but at the same time the title "fashion designer" is starting to feel more and more alien to me. Maybe it's because I don't work with clothes in my day job or maybe it's the increasing crazy speed of the fashion world. I'm not planing a major career change, I've just remembered that there are so many other creative things I like to do or would like to explore. That at the end of the day I love creating and that I'm driven by curiosity. So I'm gonna start referring to myself as a multidisciplinary creative, as pretentious as it might possibly sound. Kreativ mångsysslare, it sounds so much better in Swedish! Let's see if I still feel the same way next year. Every year so far I've had…

Continue Reading

The Grand Adventure

Ok, so I might be misusing that word, adventure. I didn't do any extensive hiking, visit a remote village or anything like it, I was technically on a city vacation. Yet an adventure it was! It was one of those life altering, confidence boosting and really inspiring trips. Not only was it the first time I visited Japan but my first time in Asia. I spent most of my time wandering the streets of Tokyo observing everything that I saw with heightened curiosity. I took a lot of pictures and I'm gonna be sharing with you over the coming months but here's a bit of a teaser.

Continue Reading

Green gold and serenity

A while back a friend suggested we should go explore Nuuksio National Park. I jumped at the opportunity since I had never been there but also because I felt I was in need of some serious tech detox. It's tricky staying away from the computer since I use it for both work and my own projects. I'm also one of those people who wants to do so many different things. However, if I have too much on my plate and get stressed about it I end up doing none of it, purely out of self preservation. Then of course I feel guilty for falling behind the schedule and try to pick up the pace. You can see what a vicious cycle this creates. I guess like everything important in life it's a matter of finding the right balance. I now know I need to minimise the amount of screen time and be a bit more realistic when setting deadlines for myself. Walking around Nuuksio on this sunny day was exactly what I needed to calm my mind. The greenery, silence and fresh air really did wonders. Thanks again to Laura for taking me!

Continue Reading

2015/2016

2015 was an event full year in many ways. I turned 30! It was a birthday I feared might cause some sort of existential crisis but what I found motivation. I decided to stop putting off things I want to do, 'cause if not now, then when? I guess it was me finally realising that with some things there's never really "a perfect moment" so waiting for thos moments is a waste of time. For me, the thing was travelling. It's what's always on the top of all my new year's resolutions and what I in 2015 vowed to do something about. So I decided to treat every trip like an adventure, even if it was the antiques market an hour from where I live.  Sometimes it was only for a day or a weekend but I still found something to marvel about. I also rediscovered the perks of travelling alone. It's not worse or better than travelling with friends or family,  it's just different. Like walking through museums and shops at your own pace? Awesome! Dining alone in crowded restaurant? I'm working on it! What are my goals for 2016? Definitely more travel and stepping out of my comfort zone but also better time…

Continue Reading
Close Menu
×

Basket